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Hello ladies! I was on this board last year when I was on Clomid but when it did not work I got too depressed to keep coming back. I feel bad because I know the wonderful ladies on here could have used my support but when you can't help yourself, it's impossible to help anyone else. Several of the ladies on here then got pregnant and even though I was happy for them I was sad for me. Just a little history... In 2007 my husband and I got pregnant. We were engaged at the time and definitely not trying. I even had an IUD in place (or I thought I did!) but turns out I must have accidentally pulled it out with a tampon. I had severe morning sickness and bouts of bleeding that landed me in the hospital many times. Things got better towards my sixth month. My husband and I got married two days before my mid-pregnancy ultrasound. We were so excited to go in and find out the sex of our baby. When we went to the ultrasound everything changed. We found out our baby had a congenital defect called a diaphragmatic hernia. Her abdominal organs had grown up in her chest because of a hole in her diaphragm so her heart and lungs could not grow. Even though I could feel my baby, a little girl, kicking and rolling in my belly, there was no way she could ever survive outside of me. Our darling girl, Serra Meghan was born silently September 30th, 2007. We were devastated. It took four years for us to start trying again.
I took my Mirena out in January 2011 and we started trying. When nothing happened by May, we started Clomid. Sadly, it did not do the trick for me. I only have periods about twice a year so in order to know when I was ovulating I bought the OvaCue digital fertility monitor. It's amazing and I would recommend it to anyone. It told me a week in advance when exactly I would be ovulating and using the vaginal probe that you can buy for it, it actually told me when I had ovulated. It's pricey but so much better than peeing on strips and trying to decipher lines like they were tea leaves! It's bad enough that I do that with pregnancy tests! I got so wrapped up in the trying to conceive process that I just burned out and decided to stop. I figured if it was meant to be it would happen. So here we are over a year later.
I had my first period in 10 months on Valentines Day. Just what you want for romance, aunt flo arriving! Seven days later we did the baby dance and for some reason I put it on my calendar.the last couple weeks I've had nausea, tender breasts and increased CM. Since I am forever taking Internet cheapie tests, I started testing on April 8th and seeing a REALLY faint line. I've taken 10 tests in the last few days. I hold them up to lights, try different angles, take them outside, you name it I've tried it! It is impossible to take a photo of those stupid little strips when the line is faint. I haven't said anything to my husband because I want to know for sure before I get his hopes up. If I am pregnant, the timing is perfect because Saturday April 14th is my 31st birthday and he is taking me out of town to a beautiful hotel in the mountains. So I went to the store today and bought 4 boxes of different HPT'S. I took the FRER and if you put a light behind it you can see a second line. The e.p.t. didn't really show anything. I don't know what to do! Today is Wednesday and I need to see an actual line that you don't need to coax with back lighting before I tell him. I feel pregnant and I so badly want to believe that this time it's real but I'm not sure. What do you ladies think? Also, how would you tell your husband you were expecting in a really special way? Thanks for listening and I wish you all baby dust by the truckload! Good luck!!!
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