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BTW, my mother said that her husband may have molested me but she didn't take part in it. So, she could not speak on the situation... No apology... She wasn't even shocked... My biological father told me that he believed that God wanted him to teach me how to be with men. He said that he only wanted the best for me. Mind you my father lives in a condo and is doing very well. My point is that most believe that rapists or molestors are low income individuals. He is just a sick individual. No apology from him... If I return to confront them I want to ask "Why" but I don't think I will get the answer I am looking for.... Sometimes, I wonder if I had so many vaginal health issues because of what I went through... I've had no problems anywhere else on my body...

TO ALL- Just keep walking! "WE GET KNOCKED DOWN, BUT WE GET UP AGAIN AND KEEP GOING" 2 CORINTHIANS 4:9 (NLT) Pastor Mark Coleman’s son, Peter, inherited his dad’s love for hiking. When he was just five years old, the two planned to hike around a mountain and camp beside the lake. Mark told his son it would be a tough hike. He said they’d be tired, but they’d have to keep walking in order to make it to camp before dark. But it was even longer and harder than they expected. The little boy grew weary – but he kept walking. He slipped on loose rocks – but he kept going. He fell and ripped the knee of his jeans – but he kept walking. Finally, after one slip too many, he sat down on a big rock and started to cry. As his dad approached and began to talk, Peter cut him off, saying, ‘I know, Dad. It’s okay to cry – as long as I just keep walking!’ Paul says, ‘We are pressed on every side but not crushed and broken God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up and keep going. We don’t look at the troubles we can see right now we look forward to what we have not yet seen. For the troubles we see will soon be over, but the joys to come last forever’ (2 Corinthians 4:8-9,18 NLT). Today if your journey’s long and hard, it’s okay to stop and rest (or even cry), just as long as you keep walking! ‘How?’ you ask. By ‘…keeping [your] eyes on Jesus…from start to finish…’ (Hebrews 12:2 NLT). Allow Him to be your example, your inspiration, and your greatest motivator... Someone sent me this email. It's always a good thing to read when you are going through...

Wow MsMonet... I am speechless after reading your post. You are truly a miracle because you not only overcame so much, but you have turned to the Lord instead of turning bitter like so many people would. Also, you have turned out to be somebody (I can read it in your words). You have and will (with your child) break the cycle that you were in. I pray that the Lord will hear your prayer and bless you with your heart's desires.

Chi-Girl-Thanks for the prayers! Too be honest, I don't know how to hate anyone. Even those who abused me... I will choose to not have them in my life and move fwd... If I could have authorities to do something, I would but since I cannot I must trust that God will handle it for me.

May God also bless you with a healthy baby or babies, bless your health, your husband, your mother, your walk and your talk! Keep up the great work! This thread is a blessing!

dear lord i would like to pray for rhondas family since i know that they are going through an ordeal with her husbands grandma dying. i pray that they can move on and can heal. i also pray for each of the women who are on this thread and all the others. i pray that they may get what they are looking for. i pray for ms monet that she may be able to get passed all the hurt and pain that she has been through and that she may be blessed with healthy childrn. i pray for j.D. i know that she has been through alot in her trying to conceive journey. i pray that each of these women on here get to have healthy and happy pregnancies they deserve it so much. i know that all things are possible with god and i pray that you are reading each of my words as i am typing them and that you help each and everyone who believes that you can make anything happen. in jesus name i pray. amen. good luck to everyone of you on h ere.

Thanks for all of the prayers and encouragement. Let's continue to pray for one another. More prayer, more power! It would be great if we continued this thread for awhile to see what blessings God has given us... linds99, how are you?

i thank GOD for everyone's prayer.i pray that each and everyone will soon get their little miracles.just keep praying. there is power in numbers that pray.

Hi everyone, I have really enjoyed reading all these prayers. I have also been praying for 12 years for a baby, and have had a total of 4 miscarriages. The miracle is that this year I was able to conceive twice naturally with no medication, even though I miscarried. I truly believe that God is in the process of healing my body right now. I am so encouraged, and it's all because the Lord has been with me thru all the tests, drugs and disappointments. But he WILL answer our prayers in His time. I have just seen a specialist, and thank the Lord all my tests came back normal. So, he prescribed Prometrium. I have read great things about this on other boards. I start ttc again in a couple of months. I pray to easily conceive, a healthy pregnancy, a heatly baby and easy delivery in the name of Jesus.
I look forward to hearing about all of our miracles!

Hi MsMonet, thank you for sharing your story with us. It really puts things in perspective. Your situation is not one anyone would trade you for, but as you can see, we are all compassionate to what you have been through. The fact that your parents were blessed with a child (you) and they did not protect you and harmed you shows the other side of life that is not fair. I believe you when you say you will do the opposite when you have a baby, and may God be your guide. I'm just really sorry that this happened to you.

linds99 - And thank you for your advice and prayers. Just so you'll know... God gave me a confirmation the same day that I read your thread about the abortion. I thought I had let that go but realized that I still felt guilty but then I got a confirmation that God doesn't hold me to blame. It is I who holds myself to blame. That day I truly let go... Thank you and thank God! What a release... God is good! I started writing a ltr to my parents a few wks ago. It's been hard to write it. I know that I should be forgiving... But then I want to express all of my feelings so I sound angry and bitter... I am gonna pray and wait for the spirit to lead me. It never takes me that long to write a ltr. Also, I am going to pray about the time in which my husband and I return to see my parents... Alittle afraid about my husbands reaction toward them and I want to be strong and not shed a tear. For some reason, I feel as if I am giving my so parents power of me by shedding tears in front of them... Sometimes, I feel like I am giving them power by letting this past situation still bother me... Everyone says that I should let it go and move on because I am 35... People say that I am married and to create my own family but I think each of us desires and or enjoy having a relationship with our parents, uncles, aunts, cousins, etc... My friend said that things may change once I have a child... Perhaps, in all due time... Maybe returning to parents will help me get some type of closure... I know that I have come so far, linds99... Since therapy and attending church regularly... Never thought I would go to therapy but I did. Back then, I called and spoke to someone and was told that they'd already started group therapy and the individual sessions were full... I knew God led me there so I told the counsler my story... I told her that I needed help. I have a secret that I'd been carrying for years... I told her and she had me come in for individual counseling within 2 days and group therapy a wk later. Praise God! I learned so much about who I really am. Each individual session that I attended, I would mask the hurt and act as if what I experienced didn't bother me. My counsler would tell me that it is OK to cry and I would then get angry. I was taught that crying was a weakness... So one day, I broke down and cried like an infant. Uggghh! Although it felt wonderful, I was embarrassed. Red eyes, clogged nose and a wet blazer... So, from that day on I cried almost every session and walked away feeling as if a weight was lifted.... I actually cried everyday for at least 6 to 8months straight, honestly. No one knew this but God & I. God is good! We must always keep the faith and lean on God no matter how things appear.

Best of luck and strength when returning to your parents to confront your past, with your present in hand. Those "supposed parents" who wronged you when you were a child probably won't be phased by what they did to you in the past when confronted with it, but I'm certain they will be phased by seeing what a beautiful woman you have become despite it all. That is awesome your husband will be there with you. I wish you the best of luck.

Linds99- Thank you so much! Enough about me... Geez, I feel as if I wrote so much. How are things going for you?

John 14:13-14: And whatever you ask in my name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. "If you ask anything in My name, I will do it."
Heavenly Father, please be with us through this difficult time in our lives. Bless us all with healthy children and give each one of us the miricle we've been waiting for. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen

Good afternoon ladies, WOW!! My jaw dropped in absolute amazement whe I read through all of the posts posted after the 27/10 (thats when I posted my prayer). I just want to say that this is absolutely great, women coming togehter from all over the world, not in the flesh but in our hearts and souls, and praying for each other, opening our hearts and telling our stories. MsMonet, I really liked your post that encourages all of us to keep walking. I too have fallen, miscarrying my baby at 11.5 weeks in May was one of the most devastating things I have been through in my life. I however have gotten up, and decided that I will keep getting up no matter how many times I fall, I will dust myself off and keep walking!! After reading your story I just felt like my heart was ripped from my body, I kept asking how could parents do this to their own flesh and blood, the answer I dont know?? With that I would like to say that you are a great inspiration to me, and I am sure to all of the other ladies on here. My prayer to all of you girls for today, Dear lord, please make all of these womens paths smooth so they dont have to get knocked down and get hurt anymore than they already are, Lord hold their hands and lead them, furfill their hearts desire, bless each and every single one of them with a miracle from You, the miracle of being a parent!!! In Jesus's name, amen amen amen. Ladies please keep this thread going, its a very inspirational thread to come to when I am feeling low, all your prayers cheer me up instansly. Lots of hugs and kisses your way, Love Jazzee xxx

my reqest is hoping that i can concieve a wonderful, healthy child soon. i want to give my husband the child he's been longing for....in jesus name ..amen

Dawn-May God give you your hearts desire. God bless you!
Jazzee-Thanks for the prayers and May God bless you, also. We've all fallen in life... I had to get to a point in which I had to stop trying to undertand t