TTC is taking its toll....don't know what to do now...
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MelissaV - June 29

I apologize in advance if this turns into a vent, but I don't know what to do this month. TTC is really taking on toll on me mentally & on my relationship with dh. A little background: We have been trying for almost 3 years. This past fall in Sept. I had an HSG and found both tubes blocked. A LAP in October dx me with Stage IV endo. THe doctor THINKS she removed most of that & cleared out at least one tube. Then after an elevated CA125 scare I saw an oncologist/gyn for 6 months and was put on continuous bcp to suppress the endo and make sure that was the only thing elevating that blood level. I also have low progesterone & take prometrium on CD 16-28, and I bbt chart. I am on CD 7 on my 4th cycle since the bcp right now. I completely expected to be pg by now. Each month is getting harder, and I get sooo angry/depressed when af comes. I feel like DH & I have turned into "baby-making machines" for 7 days & "roommates" the rest of the time. I can't decide if I'm going to bbt this month, cuz watching my cycle so closely seems to make me more uptight (and hopeful). I go back to the doctor at the end of July, and I'm hoping I'll have another HSG done to check on my tubes. If I know they're open I think I can calm down about all of this, but I'm very scared (and have a feeling) their blocked.... I would love to hear your advice on how you handle this pressure. .


whynotme - June 29

I have noticed in your post that you are not using OPK's? Right? Well that would be my first step. The test kits have instructions on what days to test and once you get a + LH surge then you are about to ovulate.
Also, maybe you and DH and can go on a nice vacation away from "baby-making" and all that entails. DH and I have been TTC for 4 yrs. and have been through alot! We need a vacation also! Try the OPK's and see what happens. Then if they don't work after a few cycles, maybe you could check into seeing a RE. Good luck!


MelissaV - June 29

Actually, I do use the opks with the bbt chart & I do seem to ovulate. Sorry, I just knew my previous post was getting long, so I tried not to go into too much detail. You're right about the vacation. We are going to go away this weekend, so hopefully that will help. Are you seeing an RE? I would love to start seeing one, but I have zero insurance coverage for infertility & there is no way we could afford it right now. I think that's a big part of the frustration for me right now...


bj - June 29

Hi, Melissa. My husband and I tried for 3 1/2 years to get pregnant. I am happy to say now that I am 7 weeks along. Let me tell you a little bit of my story. I hope this will give you some hope. I, also, didn't want to see a specialist about infertility because of lack of money. I finally decided to atleast see what he had to say. I did have to pay for the consultation, which I think was about $200. Long story short, he suspected endometriosis, so he scheduled a lap. Good news is that he said endo is a medical condition, so therefore, would be covered by my insurance. That was a definate Praise God! Anyway, come to find out, I had stage IV endo, as well. I had one tube blocked. My nurse kind of discouraged me because she said my tubes were pretty damaged because of the endo. Well....after the surgery, he wanted to put me on some shots call Lupron. I was kind of scared to go on them, because it puts you in kind of a menopausal state. I wanted to get pregnant.....NOW!!! Well, after many questions as to why I needed to be on it, he said that the Lupron would clear off any endo that he may have missed. Also, he said, that having endo as bad as I did, the Lupron would clear out my system, and make it healthier for me to even carry a baby. So.....I trusted him, and was put on the shots for about 5 months. It really wasn't too bad. After the shots, he wanted to put me on birth control to regulate my cycle again. (By the way, I also have PCOS). Well, again, I didn't want to be put on the pill. I wanted to be pregnant NOW! He assured me that he has had a good success rate with stage IV endo, the shots, then the pill, then pregnancy. Well, after my second cycle, they wanted to check my tubes again, and guess what......they were clear!! Two weeks later, I found out I was pregnant!!! Trust me, if it can happen to me, it can definately happen to you. I cried so many times throughout that 3 1/2 year period, but now I have to say, the surgery, the shots, and everthing have been worth it. My first ultrasound is on July 10. Sorry for this being so long. I just wanted to encourage you. I hope it helped a little. It wouldn't hurt to talk to a doctor. Your insurance might cover it. Mine did. Even the shots. Well, good luck! Stay positive, and trust that you will be a mommy soon!


MelissaV - June 29

BJ-your story is exactly what I need to hear. It sounds like our stories are very similar. I didn't have to take Lupron, but my doctor did put me on the continuous pill for 6 months (so, I know what you mean about not wanting to be treated, cuz you want to get pregnant!). My doctor was fairly confident the suppressive treatment worked, because my CA125 level went from 65 to 3 (it can sometimes indicate endo) I just hear all these stories of people with endo having a lap and suppressive treatment who get pregnant quickly after all of that. I just had my hopes set too high that it would happen so fast. Thanks for your encouragement, though...I really appreciate it! I probably will talk to my doctor next month about seeing an RE...


bj - June 29

Well, good luck and I really do hope all goes well. I enjoy getting to tell people my story if it will give them some hope. Let me know what happens.


bj - June 30

Hey, Melissa. Just letting you know that I"ll be out for a little over a week. Taking a much needed vacation. I didn't know if you would need to talk or anything, and I didn't want you to think I was just ignoring you. You and your dh will be in my prayers.



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