Injections and RE monitoring
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CC - August 23

Geez..I just freaked out on my dh, because he accused me of not wanting to go to my in-laws over the holiday weekend because I still havent found out of I can have the time off. I think I must be a little on edge today. Of course I want to go, but its still 1 1/2 wks away, and I thought I would inquire again on Monday. UGH!!!!!!! Our IVF thread got its 1st BFP from our first beta. Twiggy is next, then me. I wish I had woken up today and thrown up! Then I would have known for sure. Im afraid its going to be a bfn. I just cant test. It would be nice to know, but only if its a bfp. When you got your bfp, you had no signs right? Specifically, cramping, that you can remember? I have cramped since ET (I think I mentioned this before) and I have noticed its worse when I am active, like when I have been sitting for a long period, and get up and start walking around..I still get them when I am sitting, but it doesnt seem as strong. I know cramps can mean nothing or something, I just wish after an IVF cycle, I knew how my body was feeling on the inside. Only thing I can think of, is everything is going back down to size in there. I wish I had A sign! My time off all stays with me, and just rolls, year after year, month after month. You can eventually max out, but I dont know what the max is..More then I have ever had, thats for sure! So tell me something else. I need to live vicariously through you. You are feeling good, belly hanging, going to start going to work naked because you cant find clothes...What else? House going ok? Bought anything at all for Zane or his room? Does using his name feel strange to you?!

 

Ann1 - August 23

I felt absolutely nothing at all in the way of "signs." The day I took my first hpt and got the bfn, I swore that af was about to start. I didn't have cramping or anything, it just felt like af was about to get here (plus I had the spotting). Let me also say, though, that I am not one of those women who is really "in touch" with her body. I don't feel myself O or anything like that. I always look at things in best and worst case scenarios. So if you test, you get a bfp sooner in the best case. In the worst case, you test and get a bfn sooner than a bfn from a beta or af. Of course some people could also say the worst case is getting a bfn that is really a bfp. So then on the flip side, if you don't test, you just go through all this hell wondering and waiting to test!! So the waiting is better for you, huh?!?! I wish I had your patience. Dh better just get used to your freak outs, because being pg really brings them on. In fact, maybe that is your first pg sign!! Early in pg and even now, I did/do feel some cramping (did not feel it that I remember in the 2ww), especially if I move suddenly--like quickly stand up or something. I have been using Zane's name off and on. My dh is a Crimson Tide fan, and he likes their QB that just went pro named Brodie Croyle. Dh had nicknamed the baby Brodie before we had an idea on the gender, so dh still says Brodie sometimes and I tell him to get used to Zane. Then he jokingly tries to convince me to use the name Brodie (very southern sounding imo). Good thing he is kidding! I haven't bought anything for Zane or his room. I am still too afraid to. If I get an amnio, I am going to wait until I have those results back before I get anything. Naked may scare people. I was getting dressed this morn and I looked in the mirror in my undies. I thought, "Hmm, my waist is still intact and I don't look that bad." And then I turned to the side...my stomach is big! I weigh in on Wednesdays, so I weighed today. I have gained 6lbs now, and I am supposed to have gained 5 (on the low end of the range), so I guess I am doing ok. I don't see why my stomach is so big. I swear I look like I am 5 months pg! Did I tell you that, when I was shopping on Sunday, that I went in to buy a larger size of undies? Sorry if this is a repeat, but I've worn the same undies since like high school. They are cheap and don't creep (just at JC Penney). Well, they don't carry them anymore!! I went home and searched all over the internet--the company no longer makes them!!! I was so irritated. The last thing I want to do is try to find some other undies to wear. I hate shopping enough, but how boring.:)

 

CC - August 23

Ann, your post had me cracking up. You didnt tell me you have worn the same undies since high school, but if its not broken, dont fix it! Maybe you have been the one keeping them in business all these years! That would annoy me as well..How about just not wearing them anymore as a sign of protest?! Not only do you need a new wardrobe for the months to come, you need to find a new brand of undies!! The pressure! Im kidding, but I would be ticked. You need to find an undie pro who can tell you what other brand and kind you can find thats similar. Oh, the challenges we go through. Maybe your belly is big because the baby is big, or long? You and dh are both pretty tall. Was he measuring right on before, or do they not do that until the baby is bigger? 6 pounds of weight gain is nothing! I know no one wants to get huge, but I think its sort of a time to enjoy (as much as you can) eating for 2, and getting bigger. You know, the whole pregnancy is beautiful thing..How about pregnancy is sexy? Some actually feel that way. I dont know if I can say that I will, but embrace getting bigger. (Was that an over the top pep talk or what?) I also laughed about the name Brodie. I actually know someone right now who is naming their unborn that. Its not an entirely horrible name, but its certainly not for me..I like Zane a million times more. I didnt think I remembered you having any signs. Makes me feel better. I dont think Im really that in touch w/ my body, although I try to be. I read things all the time, that women say they feel before a BFP, and I always think "How did they know thats what it was"..Ya, maybe my freak out today was my first sign. That really made me laugh. I think it was just a freak out, and nothing more. Darn. Im looking for signs. I want signs. I just dont have signs : ( ...We were saying on the IVF thread about itching as sign, Twiggy said she has it all over her body. I have read before its not common, but it can happen due to the hormones. I then remembered today, that on Sat while on bed rest, my palms of my hands, and soles of my feet got really itchy off and on, but I think that was due to the steriod I was taking after ER. Damn again. I guess for me, the waiting is better. Im so used to waiting, and then the let down at the end, I guess the waiting is just easier...After this weekend, I'll see how I feel, and you can help me re-evaluate things. Maybe I will let you guide me slowly into testing. Its all torture. Im having dinner w/ a g/f of mine tonight..Something to make the night fly by is always nice.

 

Ann1 - August 23

Just to clarify--I wore the same undies as in the same style not the same pairs (i.e. I bought new ones over the years)! I was dying to have signs. I wanted my bbs to be sore so bad, even after I found out I was pg (that didn't happen until about week 8). Now I feel like screaming from the rooftops not to pay attention to signs!! At my u/s last time, they didn't tell me how the baby was measuring, but before it was measuring about 4 days bigger. That doesn't sound like a lot, but at that time, the length doubled in a week and a half. Hmm, pg sexy. I don't think I could go that far. I don't feel sexy at all. I am cool w/getting bigger and gaining weight. I just don't want to gain too much too fast. I sort of feel like my body is its own little science experiment. No offense to your friend, but I kind of thing that Brodie is a horrible name.:) I hope that doesn't offend anyone that may read this, but I think it sounds like a dog name. Itchy huh? I've never heard of that. Is it possibly a progesterone s/e? Well, I will be climbing the walls for you to test after this w/e passes. That is a LONG time!! I am glad you get to go hang out w/a gf this evening. Have fun and I hope you get to take your mind off the wait a little, no matter how temporarily!

 

CC - August 24

Oh, so you didnt mean that you wore the same pair of undies all that time??! I knew what you meant, that made me laugh today, and I needed it! If anyone reads this thread and is offended because you (or me) for that matter doesnt like Brodie, then oh well! It sounds like a car part to me, but thats just my opinion! I have heard worse, but its not for me. I hope your appointment today went/is going well. Update me please when you can! Did you get another measurement? Your body is a little science experiement! Sometimes, when I think about it, I wonder how strange it will feel, if at all, to know another human being is being developed w/in me. Its sort of an odd thought. I think everything I am feeling a progesterone s/e. I woke up in the middle of the night last night, just feeling like, in the pit of my stomach, and deep in my gut, that this IVF didnt work. I hope I am wrong, and my body proves me wrong, but I feel just like I felt after my IUI's, like nothing had ever happened. I know it could be too soon, and I could not have any signs, and thats my hope, but today-Im feeling a little negative. Thats just my nature though when it comes to ttc. I just have to keep plugging along. Im want to hear about your appointment, so I'll get this posted.

 

CC - August 24

Man, there are a million typos in that post. Sorry.

 

Ann1 - August 24

My appt went well today. I got the details on the testing from last week. Due to the good results, my risk of Downs is 1 in 3,500 and the other test they did with the blood (forgot what it was for already) my risk is less than 1 in 10,000. Dh and I discussed it, and I don't think we are going to do the amnio. Since there is a 1 in 200 chance that you will have a m/c from the amnio, the odds are much greater than having Downs. After all this time ttc, I would just die if I caused a m/c. However, we are going to do the Level 2 u/s at 18 weeks, and if we see any indication of something bad, we will have the amnio then. They didn't do an u/s today so no more measurements. The one from last week was 3 days ahead (i.e. the baby is a little longer than average). I did get to hear the heartbeat through the monitor. I was kind of happy about that, because I have been going through a "I don't feel pg" time. I am sorry to hear that you are feeling negative. I am sure your mind is just trying to protect yourself. It is normal to think it didn't work, because nothing else has worked yet. BUT, you can be as negative as you want, because if you are pg, you are pg!! You will find out soon--not soon enough for me of course.:) So you think the progesterone is giving you s/es? The dreams or others?

 

CC - August 24

Yay, Im so happy to hear that everything went perfectly. I think you are making the right decision about the amnio now too. Im sure your 18 wk 2nd level u/s will be beautiful and all will be well. Little Zane is coming right along...Or maybe I should be calling him tall or long Zane! It must be such a great feeling to hear his little heart beating. When is your next appointment? As far as me-I just need to pull my head out of my ass and get over it. I have no real reason to feel the way I do. I dont know what my body should be feeling, or shouldnt be, pregnant or not. With all the meds that are leaving my body, and the PIO each night, and delestrogen twice a week in a shot form, who knows..Im not happy either way..I dont want to test, because I dont want to be disapointed, but I cant go around all crappy all the time until my beta...

 

Ann1 - August 24

I have a suggestion--how about you move your beta appt to Monday?? You will absolutly get a correct answer then--it will be the equivelent of 13dpo. What is delestrogen? I have never heard of it at all! I hate that you are in such a funk for your trip this weekend. I hope you can relax a little and have a good time. The heartbeat really was pretty cool. It makes me want to run out and buy a monitor for home! It was neat, because I could hear my heartbeat and then when it moved to his you could tell it was like twice as fast.

 

CC - August 24

I was going to suggest that to you, about getting a monitor of your own, to listen to the heartbeat whenever you want. I have read that some are really bad and crappy, but that some are really good. You should check into it, and I dont they are expensive. Delestrogen-Hmm, good question, no clue. Its one of the meds for IVF that I dont really know anything about. Some on the IVF thread are taking it also. I only get it Tue and Fri, and the dose is small. Guess I can google it, but it doesnt matter, still have to take it. My RE wont move my beta. They are strict on the whole 14 days after transfer thing. I just have to suck it up, and remember to feel thankful I have the chance at this..

 

CC - August 24

We need a new thread, this one takes forever to load..What do you think?

 

Ann1 - August 25

I was going to suggest that on the thread. It has been a looong time since I could read posts on my Blackberry! Feel free to pick the name. I suck at creative stuff like that.:) That is ridiculous that they make you wait 14 days after your ET. Is that some kind of money-saving measure for them, since the beta is free?? People will have af before beta time almost all the time. I could see them forcing you to wait until 14 days after the ER, but that is just wrong!!

 

CC - August 25

Ok, this is coming from one non creative type to the other..New thread name.."Injections and monitoring 2" If that isnt uncreative, I dont know what is!
I'll post there.

 

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