2ww driving yhou crazy- Part 9
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lovemy3 - November 21

Alright...we're gonna see some BFP's I just know it!

 

lovemy3 - November 21

Feeling stressed in the last couple of hours..gosh I hate this waiting.

 

pmblake - November 21

Hang in there! what day are you now? I woke up this morning, temp had dropped to coverline and today is officially CD1. It came alot quicker than I thought, but m/c is in the works and I can move onto my next cycle. Oh and I wanted to talk to you about cramping. I"ve noticed there is a difference in pregnancy cramping (which I had last week) and AF cramping. Af cramping seems to be lower and deeper inside. Pregnancy cramping was more around the beltline area. higher than AF and less intense. Not as deep in my gut. Like my ovaries are being kicked around. And the cramping would come and go. AF just seems to hang around. Does that make any sense? I've always wondered if the cramping is truly the same and for me there was a difference. Hopefully you're having the BFP cramping!

 

lovemy3 - November 21

Thanks pm, just feeling really blah, thinking gosh, what if I do get af, I'm just so tired of it all. Pretty much had enough. I really have to go in to the dr and face the music of whatever the issue is. I just keep praying and hoping that it is just a matter of time. I read all the posts of the women who have endured so much with tests, meds and all of it. I really don't think I'm up for that. I am super busy with my kids already and couldn't do that rollercoaster I don't think, so I guess I feel that if there are issues that need fixing, if its not as simple as progerstrone and meds, I guess I'm stressing because I know this is the end of ttcing for me. As I type I do have some major af cramping which really sucks, Its looking like another crappy month. Arghhh!

 

pmblake - November 21

Look, I said the same thing 3 years ago.... I would never go on meds and it just wouldn't be meant to be.. but then I realized how much I wanted another child so I said ya know.. I"m older I want this to happen so I"m gonna take some help. Whatever it is I'll take help. We've sworn off IVF b/c of egg quality. I may as well go to vegas w/ 12k. But I'm doing all that I can to make this happen. I think once you go to the Dr. and he says that you just need a little boost that you'll do it. We' re not 25 anymore. We're trying to have kids and if you really want it then take the help. Sorry for the pressure but it sounds like we're in the same boat. TTC and older. Don't thrown in the towel just yet. You're just bummed over a possbile let down this month. It's your defense. That's what my DH says about me. Well, I just dropped off my 4 yr old at weeschool and had to face very pregnant moms. After weeschool I take her to dance where I"ll see more very pregnancy moms. I cried in the car. I don't think I"m ready for this yet. BUT I"m going to take help and try it again next month ;)

 

lovemy3 - November 21

Thanks pm, I know what you mean about the pregnant moms thing. Thankfully, all of my friends are done having there babies. Mine are the youngest in our group of friends, but I still see them out and about. I am having more cramping as well as diarrhea (tmi-lol) so I'm thinking af is on its way. If its today or tomorrow, my Luteal Phase is way too short, I'll keep you posted

 

lovemy3 - November 21

pm, looked back to read what you are doing/taking, etc. Forgive me for not remembering, but how long have you been tcing etc?

 

pmblake - November 21

Hi Lovemy3 - no problem. Sometimes I'd like to forget how long it's been! I'm 39, 2 kids (4 1/2 and 12) I"ve been trying for #3 for 3 years. 4 m/c's later and here I am. I have very irregular and light cycles and I've been on alot of different meds. I'm just looking for the perfect one to keep my hormones balanced and make me ovulate on time. I typically O late which I've heard can bring on bad egg quality. How are you this afternoon? I'm bleeding pretty heavy now, but hopefully it won't last much longer. Maybe 3-4 more days.

 

lovemy3 - November 21

Thanks pm for the scoop. My kids are 11,5 and 3 and I am 37 and am approaching the 1 yr of ttc. My cycles are not irregular but have been very light lasting 2-3 days tops and not much blood. Thats what prompted me to get on the ttc bandwagon a year ago. My af has been light for 1 yr since the month we started to ttc. It hasn;t gotten any worse, just the same. I think I have always o'd late even in my younger days. I will go and get a blood work up in the beginning of January when we get back from vacation and see whats up. How were your FSH levels?

 

lovemy3 - November 21

Also, how is your bleeding, are you really crampy? Thats is crappy, somedays are just crap aren't they. I hope you aren't in pain, and I'm sorry I am in such a bad mood. Feel better soon!

 

Tink - November 21

Hi ladies. so both of you are trying for #3 and lovemy for #4? it must be hard trying to juggle your families w/ all of this too. well bad news. i have to sit out this cycle. i have a small cyst. plus more small cysts or early growing follicles (bad also to grow too fast). so it is a bust. it is CD4 and i had a promise for free shots this IUI. but now i lose it all. my ins runs out 12/31 for IUI coverage. what else can go wrong. i have been TTC#1 for almost 2 years now, 7 months of that on fertility treatments. why oh why is it so easy for everyone else? why is nothing going my way. i just don't know how much longer i can do this. i am 33, in good health, i work out. i would make a terrific mom. yet, it seems out of reach. come january, i will have to pay for everything OOP, probably about $2k per IUI cycle. i've already done 3. I did get IVF pricing- about $10-$12k per cycle. we can't afford that. i just am at the end of my rope. i guess now i have to start thinking about adoption too- at least that is a guarantee for your money unlike IVF. i just don't know what to do anymore. i am usually pretty strong, but this was like a last straw that is just breaking me down.

 

pmblake - November 21

Tink- I'm sorry. I don't know what to say except I"m sorry. Is this the first time you've had cysts? Ya know, I"m going to start a low cost low stress protocol and go another year. Then I'm out. You're so young. Honestly. I had one child at 26 and the other at 34. Both unplanned. Have you tried Clomid or Serophene? I don't O on Clomid but I do on Serophene. It's a sister to Clomid - same ingredients just processed differently. I"m going to do Serophene for a year and see what happens. Find something that you can afford and something that will take the stress out of your life and take a break for 6 months or so but don't take yourself completely out of the race...take a medication that could get you pregnant but that doesn't involve much except for pills and some b/w. Does that make sense? Will your doctor do that for you? I've been reading about you but I can't remember what you've already been through. I went through 3 injectable/iui cycles. All busts.

 

pmblake - November 21

Oh Lovemy3, I'm crampy and bleeding those clot things. It ain't pretty here in NC. ANd I haven't had my b/w yet for this cycle but my FSH is normally very good. My Dr. says I have ovaries and reserve of a much younger woman. That's not helping me now though. You'll be amazed at what medicine can do. It's amazing to me what they're able to do by a b/w reading or just by an u/s.

 

angelkitty - November 21

PMblake - are you in North Carolina?

 

pmblake - November 21

yes I am! I live in Charlotte but we have a mtn place near Asheville so I go there most weekends. Are you from around here??

 

linds99 - November 21

Lot's going on today on this threa...hey Tink, I sat out a cycle last August because of cysts (30mm+ and 22mm+) and it took about 2 weeks for them to go away. Just stay away from caffeine, my nurse said they go away quicker without caffeine for some reason. I say you still try with DH this month anyway...temp and get yourself relaxed this cycle and screw the "sit out cycle" mentality and view this cycle as a "healing cycle" one aimed at cleansing the body and soul and go home and squeeze dear husband and tell him thanks for all his support the last few months of medicated cycles and then make an effort to "make love" the way we all used to, before all this nonsense too over our lives. Hey angelkitty, did you ovulate already? Lovemy3, af cramps today? I'm sorry, I'm also expecting AF today..tomorrow, in fact, i'm running around with a nice old pad today because I thought for sure it would come, but nothing, maybe its the injections making my ovaries puff up and cause cramps. Ahh, the simple life of infertility...

 

Tink - November 21

Pam, yes unfortunately i've tried clomid- i was on it for 6 months straight. 4 months with just timed BD and 2 months iwth IUI. I responded extremely well---that is the kicker. i had 7 mature follicles and 4 eggs released both IUI cycles on clomid. but none of the 4 were fertilized, or they didn't implant or they were just not quality eggs i guess. who knows. I just did my first injectable cycle with follistim, only 3 mature follies---go figure, the shots are supposed to produce more right? or at least better quality eggs, but still a BFN. this was to be my fourth IUI and second round of shots. i won't go back to clomid- it gave me horrible side effects and did make me ovulate great, but obviously that isn't our problem. either DH isn't penetrating the egg or my egg is sucky quality. i don't have PCOS or anything. i had a lap in october to remove 5 spots of endo and one cyst. now another one. thanks for the info on caffeine Linds- that will be a hard one to stay away from, but i do have caffeine free diet dp at the house. i don't do coffee or tea. just a coke a day usually. i have been a bum and not worked out in like 4 months. i usually love it- i love lifting weights (no, i am not a bulky chic! lol)- but i am usually in pretty good shape. wiht all the side effects, i let it go- i didn't feel good enough to work out. so i plan to take this 'month off' as a time to get back to the gym and use it as a way to release some of that anger and feelings hopefully.

 

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