ttc thru may with friendlyness and friend support.
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amygirl - May 3

No blood -
Inside the most empowered muscle
Cell divides

No flood
To inundate the microscopic cell
Or wash aside

New bud
Rooting deeply in the waxing wall
Multiplies

How I will carry you, proud and round
Inhale, delirious, ambrosial newborn scent
Fill completely every suckling need
Til plenty trickles from your small, sweet mouth; and smiles...

Ah, blood.
That speck is snatched away, tomorrow's specter-child -
And motherhood
Once again

Denied


 

amygirl - May 3

Welcome to any one who wants to join my thread.my thread is your thread for support.

 

amygirl - May 3

i am amy i have been ttc for a few yrs now including a couple m/c.i am 38 and still childless.

 

amygirl - May 3

i am going to take robiteesion and see if it helps.come one come all and join my thread.

 

amygirl - May 3

There's an explosion about to happen from the inside out whilst
the pressure from the outside is intensely compressing
my very soul - the spirit that is me is dying.

My hope is withering like a flower in the desert. As the heat
dehydrates the flower so the tears wither my soul.

The sun is gone. The cold and loneliness of the dark surround the
decrepit flower to assure that every breath of life is snatched
from what used to be a beautiful creation.

The flower succumbs and is no more.

 

amygirl - May 3

My little Ireland, my sweet little E'ire,
Oh how wanted you were!
For more years than I can recall,
I prayed for you on every star.
The day the stick showed two lines,
I was shocked, and so happy I cried.
I felt complete, I felt so sure,
At last my angel, my little girl!
Our time together was so short,
I didn't know it was possible to feel that much hurt...
The agony I feel is still so deep,
Noone knows the burden I keep.
I tried to move on in my life,
But daily I quietly sit and cry.
It was so hard to tell Dusty,
He wanted a sibling, and trusted in me.
But let you both down I did,
That's the worst feeling; letting down your kids.
For the longest time I had to know,
What went wrong? Why did you go?
I just hope you know my love,
I pray you feel it, even up above.
Having you inside my womb,
Completed my dreams, Thank you!

Love always, mommy

 

amygirl - May 3

Now is not your time, little one
Though it seemed your life had just begun.
I've learned before about these things
Sometimes even the tiniest angels get their wings.
It's difficult to know you're still inside me
But our second child you never will be.
We will not rush to the hospital to deliver you
Around the time that I would have been due.
Daddy will not count as he holds my leg
"Epidural, Please" I will not beg.
To set you free they will use a vacuum
You're the second angel baby removed from my womb.
Yes, you have a brother or sister awaiting you
Somewhere up above in the Heavens so blue.
And I too will join you someday, you see
When God decides to send for me.
Now is not your time, little one
But you will live on in my heart, sweet daughter or son.


Now is not your time, little one
Though it seemed your life had just begun.
I've learned before about these things
Sometimes even the tiniest angels get their wings.
It's difficult to know you're still inside me
But our second child you never will be.
We will not rush to the hospital to deliver you
Around the time that I would have been due.
Daddy will not count as he holds my leg
"Epidural, Please" I will not beg.
To set you free they will use a vacuum
You're the second angel baby removed from my womb.
Yes, you have a brother or sister awaiting you
Somewhere up above in the Heavens so blue.
And I too will join you someday, you see
When God decides to send for me.
Now is not your time, little one
But you will live on in my heart, sweet daughter or son.






 

amygirl - May 3

God took you when you wern't even born,
He left me with a heart all tatttered and torn.
He sees your eyes, touches your face,
He takes care of you when that was my place.
I never got to name you I hope God picked a good one,
I don't even know if you were my liitle girl, or maybe my son.
I watched your heartbeat and then it was gone,
Like hands on a clock, time moved on.
But my heart is still breaking, my tears fall silently,
To hold you in my arms will be a dream I will never see.

 

amygirl - May 3

Life is breathing, taking air,see with your eyes the one who cares. With your two little hands to hold and to kiss,10 little piggies to play games with. Two pink little lips to say the words "may I have a hug and a kiss",two little eyebrows that lift when I give you that kiss. When the time would come for me to hold you in my arms, something was wrong and the little one was gone, They took you away before i could say,"I love you my child and I'll keep you safe".

 

amygirl - May 3

Deep inside my being, where joy and affection thrives and grows,
It has become abundantly fruitful from the love of my growing children.
But the love I keep secluded from conversational scrutiny,
Are for the babies I failed to ripen within my womb.
The babies that were swept from my body too soon to take root...
Now, just mere thoughts, cared for by my memory.

My arms may never hold them but my heart bears their weight.
Unable to reach out, my thoughts do, effortlessly.
Tho' I never linger too long in this secret garden of shadows and whispers,
I find myself wandering there when my mind is still
and the gate's been left ajar

 

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