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mommy2josh-i am the same way with dh. i dont tell him everything and when i was so sick after the tubal he was so worried about me because i kept telling him that i was fine but he could tell that i wasnt fine. i dont like people to wait on me and take care of me and dh was trying to poor guy but i try to do everything and when i am upset or whatever and need to cry i will go out with the horses and i wont let dh see me cry. i was raised that crying is a sign of weakness and so it is hard to show how i aqma feeling. growing up we didnt cry even if we were in pain from a broke bone or something you didnt cry or you were weak and i know that it isnt weak to cry but i am still that way i wont let anyone see me cry. it is something that has stuck with me for years. now i do encourage my neice to cry if she wants to i will not tell her it is a sign of weakness because i know what it has done to me and i think that crying is good and i do cry just not in front of others and if i start crying in front of someone i get so mad at myself for it. LESLIE-try rubbing the castor oil on your stomach and it will do the same just not make trips to the bathroom also i have heard that raspberry tea helps induce labor. also sex can help and walking is really good to help with labor. good luck.ROBYN-great progesterone numbers. hope that you have a couple good implanters. Kelley- hope that everything is going good with you. JAVIDSGIRL- we are here to lend encouragement when we can. that is what keeps us all going. i have read that the light +'s have nothing to do with you hcg i have read that the type or color of ink that they use for certain tests show +'s brighter than other colors. so i think that maybe what it could be or you may just be barely pregnant and your hcg may just be building up enough to show a good +. test again in a day or so and i bet it is darker. BL- are things going good for you? KATT-how are you doing girl? JEN-are you feeling better today? have your neighbors calmed down? RHONDA-have you heard of cowboy troy? i have one of his cd's he sings country and he raps it and he is the only black rapper in country music anyway on his cd he has a song and it says he aint broke yet but hes sure enough bending and i feel that way sometimes. sometimes i think that the more we make the more we spend and it seems like you can never see the light at the end of the tunnel, but you will getr there. i believe that mark will get a job soon and that you will get caught up on everything. take care all. good luck.

thanks slow you sure know how to make a girl feel better you will be a wonderful mum when it is your time

Evening girls! I wanted to post sooner but I get side tracked so easily, lol there's a pill for that! Anyway, My FSH is fine and I feel like there is a basketball game taking place in my abdomen!!! Talk about going into OT, lol! ok I'll be back to post proper, lol...

Tanya - I am sorry you feel like that you cant share your emotions with your husband and also reading SLOW's post she also feels that way. I always was the same way with most of the boyfriends until I met Jason and then I felt I could completely 100% without consequences be myself and tell him everything. But I used to be the same way and just left things and always would say somethings are just better left unsaid. Tanya try to open up and talk with your husband maybe hes reaching out to you and you can tell each other how you feel. This is a very awful situation that your husband is going thru plus like you said they just are coming together after 30 years I couldnt even imagine that. I feel so sad for you that when your father even passed away you had to cry without anyone seeing that. Me I am like so emotional I cry and the drop of hat and honestly dont care who sees me LOL. But thats just me were are all raised differently and thats just the way things are. OH on the other note I read your post that your wrote on the other forum and I completely 100% agree with your view I feel exactly the same way. Anyway I have an awful headache from lack of sleep today so I am just gonna rest i am off tonite. Anyway Tanya I hope I didnt say anything offensive I by no means meant that. Luv you all.

TANYA_ I wanted to post to you separate ;) I totally believe in jynx so I so hear what you're saying. I'd probably leave it made, but the flip side is whatever is going to happen will irregardless of whether you un-make the bed. But I totally agree and would leave everything as is. The thing of it is once a believer in jynx ya stuck and jynx is the careful what you wish for scenario. Oh and no it isn't bad to not feel a huge emotion for your BIL especially if you've never met. TANYA, Supporting your husband is most important right now. I understand you wanting to hold back but it doesn't sound as if you have any reason to distrust him as building emotional walls usually stem from years of being burned, lied to, etc and it is so much easier to close yourself off and write than it is to fess up and deal. But I got to tell you, I am the exact same except with my hubby, I mean, I usually wait until everything piles up so high I break and reek havoc on the havoc and that is never good. (Clomid is helping, lol) I am afriad one day when I am like 75 or something I'll crack, lol Even sharing pieces relieves a lot of weight from the shoulders. Please try. (((HUGS))) Oh and believe me I am so sucky at verbal explanation. When I try to explain something to someone I tell em they're gonna have to read between the lines or wait for a letter in the mail if they don't catch on, lol! Hang in there ;) luvyas!

ROBYN_ Totally good to know that Clomid is like creep weed, lol (For the record - I do not smoke pot anymore but ya gotta admit it was a great analogy). Great news about your progesterone levels.

JEN_ you so fit my mold, lol as I say that to my dh when I am flooding, lol

JAMIE_ All I can say is I hope I don't have to go to 100mg & IUI I hope December is my month and it's not another pie in the sky.

GIRLS_ Please don't get upset with me for this but PLEASE try not to bring bad karma over here from the other threads. Remember the whole name theft fiasco - I really don't want any trouble again. Our names follow us everywhere on here and it's a very easy search.





Hi KELLEY! Hi LESLIE! Hi TANYA2! Hi RHONDA! Hi HEATHER! Hi CHRISTINE! Hi CHRYSTINA! Hi BROOKE! Hi SHAUNA! Hi MELISSA! Hi KATHY! Hi ERIN!

Hey I was just remembering its december tomorrow whos starting the new one!!!

Hello everyone it is raining and freezing to ice and trying to snow,great that is just what we need.Mark needs to put in more applications and this back road we live on is majorly neglected by the rd department and it is slicker than oil in bad weather.Tanya2 im sure your pg and everything will be ok hun.Tanya im so sorry about bil and i hope the best for him.Some times people just have a hard time opening up to others and it is alright,Your a very caring sweet person and i am so lucky to have you for a friend.Jamie i have never heard of the person you are talking about that sings country turned into rap.I dont listen to much music at all.Well i went to the dr this morning and did my gestational diabetes test and i am 27wks now.Everything looked good.Still no word on any jobs applied for though,guess we aint suppose to get a break anytime soon.I dont know.

rhonda honey you are the best adopted sister a girl can get you know what to say to make me feel better always your prayers will be answered soon i just know it god will see your big heart and kindness like we do and bring many blessing your way real soon

Robyn, no offense taken. I have always been this way, even as a small child. You know how kids drive their parents crazy with the tentrums and screaming fits? Well I drove my parents up the wall with my silence. I never gave them the satisfaction of seeing me cry even when my dad would take a belt to me (trust me I totally deserved it). So there were and will be times when my husband will see me cry, but those will be few simply because that's the way I am. I wish I was different, but as long as I let the steam out, whether home, here or with my friends I am fine. Katt, it just feels wrong to unmake the bed. Dont know. The saddest part of the whole thing is that if he was wearing a halmet nothing would have happened to him. Unfortunately halmets aren't something thats encouraged in Poland. Anyway. I agree about that we should just ignore ingorance from now on. Nothing but positive energy from here on :) So who will start a new thread? Robyn may be you should :) Okey dokey. Les, hope the walking did the trick. Cant wait to hear how your appointment went. How is the weather in Seattle? It was 70 degrees in New York. Insane, tomorrow is December 1 and we expect another 70 degree day. New York weather is nuts. LOL. Kelley, hope you are feeling better. You never told us what your doc said last night. Love ya all. CSI is a repeat to I think I'll play some games online. Nighty night.

Rhonda, thank you for your kind words. I feel the same about all of you girls. I am truly sorry that life has thrown you such a curve ball. I am really willing for something good to happen to your family. (((hugs Rhonda)))

Thanks Tanya your a wonderful person and i know life aint always easy but you just have to deal with what you have.Life dont come with any gaurentees you just gotta live the best you can and be proud of what you have.And mostly be proud of who you are,because to some people you are everything.

Hello ladies! Good news at the doctors visit, I am dialated to 2 cm. She went in and stretched out my cervix and hopefully got somethings going in there. I've been having a lot of cramping and some contractions. If nothing happens tonight we are going to go walking for the day tomorrow. So hopefully we'll have a baby this weekend!! I'm so excited...I was worried I would be exactly the same but I can't tell you how relieved I was that something was going on. Well I'm going to eat a little dinner because I think I have to take it easy on food tomorrow...I don't want to throw up when I'm in labor. Well I'll post in the morning and let everybody know how its going. xoxo

Leslie, that's great news!! I can't wait to hear the details of the birth. You must be soo excited. I'm sure it will happen this weekend. Maybe if you bd, it will bring it on! Tanya, I can relate to what you said earlier. When I'm upset, it tends to come out as mad, even when I feel hurt. Dh used to tell me that it's hard to feel sorry for me because I seem so angry instead of hurt. I've gotten a lot better over the years. I thought I was weak when I would weap. Now I really enjoy a good cry, especially a happy one! Rhonda, that road doesn't sound too safe, be careful. I hope Mark finds something soon. Any word from the tarp factory? Javids, any news on the bfp? Have you called the Dr yet? Katt, I hope those s/e from the meds don't drive you too batty! Robyn, how are you doing with the shots? Are you sore or getting used to it? Well, I'm off to watch some tv. Have a good night my girls!

I started a new thread. Hope it will bring luck for you wonderful ladies~~~*~~~*~~*