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Stacie, I'm glad to hear there is testing going on. I know it's scary to think of all the possibilities. Fear of the unknown is the worst, but you need the answers, so just remember that. Modern medicine is amazing, so you just hang tight and things will work out. I miss keeping up with you guys. Seems like every time I get on here my pregnancy brain takes over and I just can't keep up like I used to. I feel stupid! hehehe.........I usually have the brain capacity to address the last person who posted and beyond that, well, forget about it! I read though, and I have hopes and wishes for all of you. I am 31 weeks today. The baby has definitely dropped, I have been really good about bed rest, especially since my restless leg syndrome has waned. Right when I started watching my blood sugar and carb intake (gestational diabetes) the RLS seemed to go away. Can you say Medical Breakthrough????? |
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Hi, Stacie, I felt I had to 'talk' to you... Firstly, the fact that your re says it may be chromosomal doesn't make it so. He/she is just making a 'best guess', so try not to worry about that too much. Also, you are absolutely allowed to feel worried, frustrated, indecisive etc. - there's no doubt. But, I wanted to gently remind you that what you put into the universe is what comes back to you. Yep, I'm talking about the Secret again. :) I realized that for YEARS I was putting into the universe that I "wasn't getting pregnant!" as opposed to the fact that I would, and that I wanted to. It was only when I stopped thinking about how I 'wasn't getting pregnant', that it happened. When I read that you're thinking: "I am so afraid that he'll say we have to do the donor egg thing. He hasn't yet, but I know it will be coming. " I got very concerned. Of course we all truly understand your fears, but...I don't want the fact that you 'know it's coming' to work against you. As I said, I totally understand why you feel how you do - I mean TOTALLY. But, as someone who really cares about you, and wants you to succeed, I had to mention that. Remember that our thread changed to "Over 34 and ready, willing and able to get pregnant!"...you must continue trying to believe that, okay? I really hope you take this post in the way that it was meant..not at ALL as a criticism, but as caring support and to remind you to keep focused on what you DO want, and try to let go of what you don't. You know I want this SO much for you... Aaand, in typing this, I've remind MYSELF that I have to stop worrying/focusing on how judged I'm going to be by my mil..she's got some very set ideas about what makes a good mom, and I worry that I won't able to handle her subtle criticism. As a new mom at 36 years old, I'll know surprisingly little about babies, and I worry that she'll be right to judge and criticize. BUT, I'm reminded now that I must focus on the fact that I WILL be a great mom, and that she won't feel the need to judge/criticize because I'll be all my baby needs me to be. Oy yoy yoy..no one said this positive thinking was easy! :) Take care of yourselves everyone..I truly truly mean that. |
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Hi everyone - sorry it's taken me so long to check in - Stacie - I agree with everything Natasha said - I think that goes for all of us :) Please keep your chin up and believe everything will be OK. Tracy, I can't believe how close you are to having this baby - I am so excited for you!! Kristi, I'm hoping af didn't show up...Laurie, we didn't do another ultrasound, but I do an ovidrel trigger and judging by the terrible pain I had on Tuesday I assume I o'd - all my steriod size follicles were much bigger than my regular puny ones. Anyway, I do go back on Monday for one more u/s - just to see if I had any side effects from the meds. Anyway, I'm only 6dpiui so nothing to report. We're going our tonight to celebrate my birthday so I'm closing early - gosh, I hope the boss won't be too mad :) I'll check back soon - Rachel |
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Hi Ladies - thanks Kristi - dear husband...now why didn't I think of that? I am currently on day 2 of AF and I go back on Clomid tomorrow - I am thinking of sending DH away this month. This is the 3rd time I have been on Clomid. The first time my progesterone was 156 - oh yeah baby (and was I cranky), They told me that was way too high....duh...so the next time they reduced my dose. This time progesterone was high but still ok ...but my prolactin shot up. So then....they put me on bromocryptine which I am taking with my clomid this month. So I am kind of lookiing forward to seeing what is going to happen this month. Baby Dust to everyone! |
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Only you guys would TRULY appreciate what just happened to me. Not even my dh, and he has a pretty good idea, knows how this makes me feel. I just spent $800 on follistim, spent the last 7 days giving myself a shot wherever or having dh do it, incurred the cost of at least 4 scans this cycle plus three blood tests to check estrogen and get to the RE's office this morning, he does a scan and says "what have you done?!" Apparently I ovulated without benefit of a trigger shot, IUI, or even recent relations with dh. No sperm waiting there to cover those eggies. He said that one of two things could have occurred 1) ovulated early--remember they had to drop my dose of folistim because estrogen was coming up too fast, by Friday I was "right where I needed to be" or 2) the follies were no good or something went haywire (I stopped listening) and got reabsorbed. We rushed home to try and catch the eggs if they were still in the tubes or whatever. Boy, I am upset. We went to dh's parents Fri night to last night and I KNEW (the little internal voice that I have such a hard time listening to) that we should have made whoopie on Friday. We were in a hurry to get out of town though. And then yesterday I had to drive a 4 wheeler around for at least an hour. I asked him if the jarring thing could have done and he didn't think so because of the way the folistim acts, you almost always need a trigger. I am not buying the b.s. about the follies being no good either because of my age. Stacie, let me remind you about my best friend who just got pregnant with one ovary. Her FSH *by definition* should be off the charts. I am also doing exactly what Natasha is talking about and you know what, if I end up needing a donor, then that is what the universe intended. Deep in my heart now is excitement for a child.. period--and faith in the universe about it all. Truthfully, I was only mad about the situation because not only was this cycle probably a waste of money, but that I should have listened to my instincts about noogie on Friday!!!! More later, dh had to make breakfast after that ordeal. L |
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Hi ladies...well AF showed today...I kept hoping the spotting was just nothing as it was very different from my normal pre AF spotting - very thin/water pink, not the usual brown...makes me wonder if I have not had another early miscarriage seeing as today is cd33 which is late for me to start. I dont know. Will call RE in the morning and go do the cd3 u/s Tuesday. Stacie, dont get too upset just yet, wait till you get all your tests back to freak out over anything, you dont need added stress of worrying over somthing that may not even be. I know easier said than done, I am the same way. I do think the positive thinking is good, I have been trying to that way myself, which really bites seeing as I really felt good about both IUI's and this last time I was not stressing at all over testing - probably because I was busy , and here AF shows anyway....oh well, on to next month. I just hope dh can do his part with him working 12hr shifts, this next IUI will fall on a morning that he will just be getting off work, so he will not be able to go with me to do the IUI which will be hard, but he would only get about 4 hours sleep before having to go back to work if he went with me.... anyway, Tracy, your getting so close, how exciting is that!!! Natasha, good luck with mil, i feel for you there! Laurie, I am confused, did you do the IUI then or not? Is there a chance it could just happen naturally?? Rachel, Happy Birthday, hope you had a great time! KarenK, hope your having a great time! Dana, Mem, hope you are doing well...KarenG, good luck with your Clomid, I was on it for 9 motnhs straight! My RE has me on Femara now which is sooo much better with the side affects...might mention it your Dr... Well, sorry if I missed anyone, hope everyone will have a great week and enjoy your Sunday... ;-) |
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Hi Ladies, been MIA for a few days, just needed a break. Been trying to focus on my business and all the things I want to do before I am pregnant. (Things in our yard that I can help dh with and stuff around the house). Made lots of progress and my business stuff is going well. I am working very hard to keep doing things that I can establish myself in the community and then have ways of bringing income in without me having to do all the work - i.e., I'm doing now what I know I would need to do once I have the baby - I'm making room in my schedule and setting myself up for passive income even while I'm tending to the baby! And I have consulted a nutrionist again to look at my diet. It's been a wonderful few days just focusing my energy on that stuff and just not thinking about the getting pregnant piece. I know it will happen, and in the meanwhile, I am continuing to prepare my body and work schedule for pregnancy. I've got a work conf next week and then Hawaii a short week after that, so we are getting pretty excited! |
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Laurie - what a crazy story, that sounds so bizarre. It sounds a bit like a lady from leads group and how she got pg. She dealt with infertility for years, was going through an international adoption, was on birth control pills and not having that much nookie and got pg. (They still have no clue how it happened, as the timing just never made any sense). So there you have it, just like your friend's story, you can get pg we just never know. Hope they figure out what happened. Tracy glad you are well and it really isn't long now until you meet Savannah. Dana and Stacie - thinking of you and wishing you well. Rachel - good luck with this cycle! Kristi - sorry about af, pg will happen, don't lose faith! |
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Kristi, sorry about af. And no, I didn't do the IUI--he probably felt that would have been a waste of money since I had to have ovulated between Friday morning and Sunday morning (when the scans were done). I think they were around 15-16mm, not big enough to be viable on Friday. Does anyone remember what size follies have to be in order to be viable? I am not sure how much they would have grown overnight. If it happens again, I am probably a candidate for IVF right away, I guess. I think having to do 4 wheeler duty really screwed things up. i was on it for over an hour. He said it would really have to be jarring but it is a 4 wheeler and not a cadillac. DH is clear that there will be no more trips anywhere when we are even close to ovulating. What a waste! Meme, your trip sounds awesome. I bet you can't wait! Kristi, are you not doing injectables then? Why is he still doing the lighter stuff if you were on Clomid for 9 months? Rachel, we are counting on you this cycle!!! Hope everyone else is okay. I stayed home from work and I think I will go watch the Secret again. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling very negative. Laurie |
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Hi guys, It's funny how the board mimics our moods. There are times when it's just bustling with energy and anticipating good news and others (like now) when it seems quiet and a little sad. I don't mean to be dramatic, but some months seem harder for us than others. Laurie - what a rotten cycle - I can't believe that. It just reminds me that our bodies are not machines and have minds of their own!! Are you going to give it another try next month? Kristi - I wish you lots of good vibes for your upcoming cycle - we are really do for some more good news!! Meme, I have to say I am so impressed with your unyielding optimism! You truly are amazing!! I went for a follow up sonogram yesterday to see how overstimulated my ovaries were - not too bad and definately not in the danger zone. I'm patiently waiting this out - today is just 7dpo/iui - nothing to report - just feeling the same as always. I guess I can try to test Friday - that might be close enough. I have decided to be excited about either a bfp or a 2 week European vacation in the fall. I think either one will be wonderful!! Well, truth be told, I am kind of hoping for one more than the other, but that will be my (our) little secret! Rachel |
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OK - I'm starting to freak our like I am the only one here?? Anyway, my temps are dropping so it looks like the 3rd time wasn't the charm. It's been rough - as we all know. I'll survive - as always. I guess the good news is that we will make it to Europe after all - I guess that's good news :) Hope someone is still out there... Rachel |
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Hey Rachel, I am still around! ;-) It just has been a busy week, and its gone by so fast! Sorry about the temps dropping, maybe it just means impantation....just keep checking them... Not much going on with me at the moment...went and had a cd3 u/s Tuesday morning, everything looked fine and I am back on Femara, then mid cycle u/s on the 29th to see how my follies look, then probably IUI (w/Ovidrel again) on the 31st or 1st....so thats about all I know for know. Hope everyone is doing great! |
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I am still here too. Still disgusted with the last cycle. Especially when I pay that credit card bill. I am going with a cousin and her son to Memphis for a couple of days this weekend and Monday. That will be fun. Rachel, I hope you this cycle works out for you. I really think even if it doesn't, this process seems to spur natural conception to, although maybe 6 months down the road. It has happened a lot. Kristi good luck on your next cycle. Tracy should be reporting Savannah's arrival pretty soon, right? That will be awesome. Rachel, repeat the e-mail for Mimosa (or is it on your website?) This may be the only way we all stay in touch in the long haul. Laurie |
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Hi everyone. I'm still here too. Nothing much is happening on my end except waiting for bw results. Sorry about the temps, Rachel. I am still hoping for you...maybe it's an implantation drop? Kristi, good luck with this cycle. I'll keep my fingers crossed. Laurie, so sorry about this cycle. I am always afraid of the same thing happening to me the days leading up to retrieval. I hope your dr can make adjustments so it never happens again! have fun in Memphis. Tracy, thinking of you...hope all is well. Dana, how you doing? Hello to everyone else. Take care everyone. Stacie |
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Had my first contraction a little while ago. Could just be Braxton Hicks. Haven't had another one in 40 minutes, so I'm convinced that's what it was. Having issues right now with my attitude. I am supposed to start insulin tonight. Gonna do more research and talk to more people before proceeding. I'll check in you guys in the morning when my brain is sharp. Just in case.....my email is princess@esilo(dot)com. |
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Thanks for checking in guys! Kristi - your IUI is just around the corner. I hope this is the one!! Laurie, have a good time in Memphis - that is where my dog came from! Great barbacue too! I know that credit card bill was tough to pay - they always are - and this was just adding insult to injury. Stacie - I can tell you are still struggling - I'm so sorry - I know it must be awful. I think of how hard this was for you and Dana all the time. Tracy, everything is going to be fine and Savanah will join us when she is ready! I can't wait!! Me, well, af started this am - nice that she showed up five days early. At there was no false hope and look at all that money I saved on hpt's! So as you all can imagine I've been spending the day just trying to stand upright. I'm so disappointed that I'm almost nauseous. Everything looked so good and still nothing. This was our last procedure, so it's extra special sad. I know that we might conceive on our own, but, well you guys get it. Anyway, I guess it's a BIG glass of chardonnay for me tonight - well - maybe this afternoon. I've been crying all day - I really must stop that at work. I'm starting to scare off my customers! Plus, if someone asks it sounds a little wierd to say "I've just started my period" - I'm not a 13 year old girl :) Anyway, I wish I had better news - I really needed some this month. Lauire - I've complied a list of everyone's e-mails and photos. If you send me an e-mail (and photo if you would like) I will forward you the addresses. That way if this web site crashes tomorrow we won't all be lost in ttc-land. Oh, I hope that is OK with everybody. If not you can e-mail me privately and let me know at mymimosa@bellsouth.net. I wish you all a much better day than I am having :) Rachel |
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