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Holly - December 20

Hi Dee.. doing good here. Except I have a bit of a crampy feeling today.. think that it is O time.. I took some
Tylenol to help with the uncomfortableness as it feels like I am bloated but like AF is going to show up.. really
weird feeling. Sorry to hear about the BFN.. don't get discouraged..I know that is the toughest thing to do..but
you can get through this.. I am here to listen (or read as it happens to be..lol) if you need someone to talk to..
no worries. Geee cleaning house sounds like fun.. good exercise..(got to look at the positives..lol) lucky for me
that our celebrations with others won't be at our house..so I don't have to cook or clean.. Yeahh!! lol ummm
yeah I do.. I like having our house clean.. it has to be clean for Santa.. ;o) __Do both of you live in the USA?
Just wondering..as it sounds different for seeing doctors here in Canada. (but I could be wrong) I hope you get
that insurance form filled out soon.. I would switch doctors if they won't do it.. and giving you the run around.
Frustrating that they wont return your phone calls... I too would not send them any money until they send the
forms off.. makes sense..pay for something after you receive service.. I would give them a piece of my mind
too if they were taking forever.. my mother is having the same issue with her doctors office.. they don't want to
send forms off until she pays them.. umm she can't pay them until she has the forms sent in to give her money!
geshhh some people!! I know how it is to shop for children.. much easier.. we have the lovely secret santa
thing too for our family so that it won't be too stressful (hubby from a family of 7 kids) I love to cook but I try for
something other than turkey.. maybe Italian food. As for the superovulation thing.. not to sure what else I will
try..maybe the more natural approach.. with changes in the diet.. herbs and vitamins. I think I need to decrease
my stress too.. there have been a couple significant things that have happened in the past couple years that
stress is very prominent.. Keep that mantra up Dee!! I have a feeling it will work for you..just don't stress too
much.. well back to work.. have a Christmas lunch today!! Yummm..I can smell the food..I am hungry..!! More
later ladies.. *~Dust~*

 

Alycia - December 20

Hey girls, how is your week going. mine has been especially hectic. as you know im a casual nurse and i have to work all te holidays. i will go to work on the 23 and 24 nights. i have the 25th off (well i have to sleep some of it) and i am right back to work on the 26th and 27th lond days then off for 2 days!!! very crazy. i hate working christmas..... i enjoy doing it for the nurses with children so that they can spend time at home with them. i guess the favor will be returned when i have children!! hopefully. tonight is our secret santa at work and that is always fun. the managers get lots of food for us and its usually a good laugh. should be okay. dh is away wroking this week so its kind of broing. i spend alot of time at moms house, i hate a big empty house during the holidays. DEE- i feel for you with the problem with the doctor it must really suck. i live in canada so i never have to worry about that part of ttc. i wish every health care system was like that. i cant even imagine having to pay for every appt. i guess i would have to spend less on everything elkse in life. sorry about the BFN biut your right youll have to try hard now for the new years baby!!! good luck with that and the christmas preparations. Holly good luck with the O this month. i hope it worls. i dreamt last night that i got a BFP...weird. today is cd 44 for me, and i feel that its impoissible for a bfp!!! i spoke to my nurse practitioner. and she made me remember what happened the last time i got pg. im not sure if i told you girls the whole story so here it goes. in december last year i got diagnosed with severe cervical dysplasia (pre cancer) cells.. i panicked and stopped taking bc pill and we decieded to ttc right away for fear that it would never happen for us. well in jan i had a test done that again connfirmed the previous diagnosis and in feb 7th i had a part of my cervix removed (small part) after the surgery in feb i never had af. i kept going back to the hospital and complianing that i never got it. they done bw and confirmed that i was not pg. so the months pasted and no af. well actually only 2 months with no af,,,, that is when i founded the group PTAA (lol) i did so many tests in those two months, then i just gave up on it. one day at work i felt weird and i did a pg test. i got ready to throw it away and holly cow BFP. i almost hit the floor. we were thrilled. dr's were a little confusd since i had no af for 2 months and then in april i was 5 weeks pg. well i went on to m/c but the point is that my n.p. now thinks that there may be a small chance that the same thing is happening,. or i could just be experiencing the same thing i did after the m/c. 4 months and no af. i guess i will just have to wait and see. i will wait until saturday night a t work and take a test(maybe pointless but christmas is the time for miracles... !!!! anyway i must go finish up the housecleaning. i willl try to kkeep in touch over the holkidays, may be hard because of the work scehdule but take care and have a very merry chrismas!!! talk to you soon. Baby dust.

 

Alycia - December 21

Bumpin us up girls!!!

 

Dee - December 21

goodmorning ladies. sorry i didn't get a chance to post yesterday...i actually went shopping and i got almost everything i need! i'm so proud of myself right now because i got almost all of my shopping done and i wrapped the presents i bought-go me! :o) so dh and i had a talk last night about new years resolutions (while wrapping presents) and decided that dh is going to stop smoking cigarettes and start going on walks to get in shape (i dont know if i told you, but dh has a weight problem due to hormonal imbalances) and start eating better. i'm really happy for him as he sounds very enthusiastic about it. we were talking about why we might not be getting pg and decided that if we really want this then we have to do everything we can to increase our chances...and like i said i want to try really hard for that new year baby! so Holly, is your O pain anything close to how bad it was last time?? i sure hope not because that was awful when you had to go to the hospital. i'm not to upset about my bfn...i knew that i wasn't, but it would have been nice to be wrong. ;o) i was just confused because my period was late, but i guess i'm just a little stressed because of the holidays and stuff. i like to have my house clean too...a coworker and i were talking (and joking) about our being obsessed with having stuff in our houses a certain way and that men just dont understand organization. well i live in Las Vegas Nevada, i was born and raised here. i love it here, but the only bad thing is that in the last 5 years to many people have moved here and it is sooooo crowded. i left work early the other day and there wasn't really any traffic and it only took me 25 minutes to get home compared to the hour that it usually takes when i leave work at 5pm. how do you like Canada? i've always wanted to visit there...i have a friend that's from there and i told him that this year i'd like to go there and he said he'd take dh and i around and show us the sites, so i'm pretty excited about that. well as far as my dr goes-still no returned phone calls. i really like my dr too, but the way the office she works for is handling things i think i might just have to switch dr's. i just dont understand what's so hard for them to answer some questions and return the form? tell your mom i totally feel her frustration! :o) i like to do secret santa...i wish we would have done that this year with both of our families because Xmas is definitely putting a big dent in my pocets this year! i dont mind though, i love watching the kids open presents and seeing their expressions. so do you do yoga or anything to relieve stress? i do scrap booking to get away, but i would like to try a work-out that would help me relieve stress w/o making me feel exhausted afterwards. hey Alycia, i wanted to ask you what a casual nurse is? i've wanted to get into the medical field since i was little and was wondering how long you had to go to school and all that? i would like to be a pediactric or neonatal nurse. also did you get any financial help, because i heard that nurses are always in high demand and sometimes the gov. will help you with your school loans and stuff. i am sorry to <read> all that happened, but atleast you know that even if you're not having af that you can still get pg! hopefully the same thing will happen and everything will work out. so when you said you felt "weird", what did you mean? did you feel pg or did you just know that something wasn't normal with your body? i have never been pg at all and i always wonder what it really feels like to be pg (not just making myself believe i have symptoms because i dont want af to show! lol). how did you feel Holly?? *i have pg envy* well i'm sending lots of good luck to you for that miracle Alycia! what cd are you guys on right now? i'm only on cd3 right now. well i have some work to do, so i will drop back in later. *~*baby dust*~*

 

Holly - December 22

Hi Dee and Alycia.. 4 more days until Christmas!! I am not ready!! OMG lol hubby went shopping today so I just have to go and get all the smaller items... and a couple kid items.. Well lets see.. I am on CD17.. I am hoping that I ovulated.. I think that I have a couple times.. (sorry sounds weird I know) On Monday I had a bit of crampy pain going on.. and then the same thing today.. so maybe more than one egg?? Would make my chances better.. Dee.. in answer to your question.. no bad O pain.. thank goodness! just the cramps.. I really hope that the clomid worked this time around as I won't be taking it again next month. Alycia.. good to hear that you have some time off.. Today was my last day until the 29th and then I get to work 2 days then have a 4 day weekend again.. I really needed the break so it will be nice. Our clinic won't have any patients as all the doctors will be away.. (out-patient clinic in hospital) so that will be nice. Make sure that you get some sleep and don't stress out too much.. Nursing is a tough job..IMO.. I am a secretary so I see how busy the nurses are in our clinic. How was our secret santa?? Sorry to hear about the cervical dysplasia.. that would be scary.. I hope things work out for you. Dee.... no worries about the not keeping up with the post.. It has been super busy around here too.. (this post has taken me 4hrs to write..lol) Good idea to stop smoking for your dh.. He should feel much better.. I quit smoking five years ago..and feel great! (so did hubby) Good for him.. glad to hear that he is making those changes.. and that you are a wonderful support for him. That would be neat to live in Las Vegas.. busy place.. Canada is great.. I live in western Canada..in Alberta.. though I would rather be in BC by the ocean..but that too will happen some day. It is a nice place to visit..I think that you would enjoy your visit..lots of lovely places to visit. I have been to Maui and that is the only place outside of Canada I have been.. I want to go back..!! Love it there! Have you heard from your doctor yet? I do yoga to relieve stress..works wonders.. I also like to journal and paint/draw anything artsy fartsy..lol Yoga is good to do so that you don't feel to worn out.. I find after I work out lifting weights that I feel great and have more energy.. but that comes with time. You just need to find something that works for you. .. As for the PG thing.. when I was pg with my daughter I knew that I was pg.. I had butterflies and just a general feeling of that I was not just by myself anymore.. kinda confusing.. I loved being pg.. was wonderful.. I got morning sickness once and did not gain alot of weight (that showed.. gained the right amount for being pg) Trust me..when you are pg you know it.. with the second pg I knew something was up..had the butterflies but then they went away.. that is how I knew something was not right.. glad I caught it in time. anyway.. I am going to watch a movie and then catch up on sleep as I have not had a good sleep in weeks now. I will check in the next couple days.. Have a great thursday ladies!! *~baby dust~*

 

Alycia - December 22

hey girls. just dropped in for a quick hello this morning. i have some news...af arrived in the early am with lots!!! of cramps. i am surprisingly happy that she showed up. i was afraid that there was something wrong with me. i definaelty dont think im normal!! lol as my cycle wa 44 days long!! well ihope it means tthat my body is getting back on track. i will be pg soon!!! cant wiat to get ttc again. DEE to anwser your question im a registered nurse i did a four year degrree progam. i had to get student loans the whole way so i owe like a ton of money. really sucks. there is sucha shortage of nurses that you think they would give some sort of incentive to get you throught university. i love my job. the causal part sucks, i measn that i do call in work when someone is sick or needs time off...which is alot in christmas. when i was pg last time i new the day i conceieved i think, even thought he tests were -ve i just had a weird feeling. i dreamt that i was pg but the levels were so low that they could be detected yet and wow a few days later the blood work showed i was. i never got to enjoy the whole pg symptioms as development of the baby stopped at 8 weeks so i gradullay lost some of the pg symptoms. i continued on for 7 weeks thinking that i was pg... that was very hard!! its okay to have pg envy i have it all the time. your day will come. if you doint mind how old are you guyys.??? HOLLY, glad to hear that the O pain is not bad this time arou nd. i hope you O this time and you get pg. someone has too !!! I live in canada too im from eastern canada -newfoundland. i visited alberta for 2 weeks in oct. i was in edmonton for 1 week (the mall is to die for) i then went to grand prarie and fort mcmurry. it was really nice it reminded me alot of newfondland. secret santa was fun. we had lots of food and exchanged gifts. the cervical dysplasia is gone now my last 4 paps have been normal....so i have something going for me. the dr thought that my m/c may have been due to concieving so fast after the surgery (may have implnated near the scar tissue,... who knows. well im going to take off now. my friend is coming up for the evening. ui will be working lots so if you miss me gone thats were i am. take crae of yourselves and have a great christmas. i iwill talk to you soon. maybe i will check in over the wekend when i working nights!!! i will beed something to help me stay awake. baby dust.

 

Holly - December 22

bumping us up.. back in 1hr

 

Holly - December 23

Hi Alycia and Dee... I am in for a quick moment.. Alycia.. glad to hear that AF showed up.. it sounds like a relief for you. Good to hear that your body is getting back on track.. my af likes to show up any were between 30 days to 50 days.. Maybe your dream is telling you your future? That would be cool.. I have not had a good sleep now in several weeks.. no deep sleep..keep waking up every couple hours.. pain in the rear as I am so tired during the day .. been getting bad headaches too.. so going to dr today to see whats up with that. I am 30yrs old.. How old are you? Good to hear that you had a good visit to Alberta.. very beautiful province. I went for an US yesterday so I am waiting to hear back about the results.. dr's office is closed until January ..grrrrr.. not good at waiting..sorry for the short post.. I have to get going and start wrapping presents and get ready for a family picture.. I will be back later if I have time.. Merry Christmas!!! *~Baby Dust~*

 

Dee - December 27

hi girls! i hope you guys are ok...it's been a while since we've talked. well christmas was pretty good. we went to dh's parents house ealry in the day and then went to my aunts house later in the afternoon. i am just so relieved that this is just over (for now). i was really happy to have yesterday off...i really needed it after everything! our secret santa went well...i got candles and coffee. yeah, vegas is pretty busy, but it's definitely got a lot busier in the last 5 years and it will probably keep getting busier. i still haven't heard anything from my dr's office...i have a feeling i wont hear anything until i go down there personally. i think i am going to take a yoga class at my gym because everyone tells me that they really enjoy it-so it cant hurt to try. good to know that af finally showed up on her own alycia...now if she could just show up every month on her own, huh? do you use opk's to tell when you're Oing since af doesn't show up regularly? i am 22 years old (going on 50 with all the stress lately). so what are your results from your US holly? hope everything is ok! well sorry this is short, but i wanted to stop in and see how everyone was doing after the long weekend. work is sooo busy today, but if i have enough time i will stop back in. *~*baby dust*~*

 

Alycia - December 28

hey girls. just droppping in for a quick hello. christmas went great!! besides all the working today is the first day i hhave offf so im planning on doing some family visiting. dee and holly im glad that your christmas' went well and that everything else is well. to answer you question in 24. i have to run now but i will try to post longer tomorrrow. the holidays mess eveything up hey!!! talk to you guys soon. take care . baby dust.

 

Holly - December 28

Hi Ladies.. doing good here. Don't feel like going back to work though..lol I love waking up whenever I feel like it and not having to worry about what time or day it is.. ahhhhhh ... but that won't happen for 2yrs (when Hubby goes back to wrk) I am glad that I did not have the same pain again this month with the clomid. Not to sure how the US went as my RE office is not open until January. Went for the day 23 blood test again..today (being day 24 was ok though) did not have the req for the lab..but they said that was ok because I was in already for this kind of test... crossing my fingers that I O'd this month and that the BD worked..lol CD24 so now the wait is on.. uhhhgggg!! Dee.. glad you had a good holiday and that you had some tiem off.. Good idea about taking the yoga class.. I love yoga.. really relaxes me.. I took it at work .. there were some days that I did not want to go and when I left the class I was so glad I did.. felt so relaxed and had energy. Let us know how it goes. I personally have never tired OPK's so maybe I should try that seeing as though I won't be taking clomid. 22yrs old is young.. I wish I was that age again.. Alycia.. glad Christmas went great!! It's nice to have the day off.. I too had the day off work... have the next weekend a long weekend again so that will be very nice. Talk to you ladies soon. *~ Baby Dust~*

 

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Holly - December 30

Hi girls.. just checking in. I think that I had a cyst this month and that it just popped today.. got a bit of pain.. and I am uncomfortable.. hope that I O'd though.. frustrating that my RE is not in to talk to about any of this as well as my family dr.. would be a nice New Years start to find out one of us is PG this January.. anyway.. off to bed in a bit..have a great Friday!! ~Dust~

 

Holly - December 30

Hi girls..I am feeling sick today so not much time on the computer..was up since 4am..need sleep. hope all is well.. ~Dust~

 

Dee - December 30

hey girls...how are you? i'm good, just very busy right now! i work at a title company and everyone is trying to close their deals before the end of the month and year...so it's been a little crazy. i am sooo excited to start the new year. i hope things will be better this next year for all of us! holly do you think the pain you were feeling today is from you Oing? i hope that it was. did you and your dh bed just in case? i should be Oing any day now so i'll have to wait to see if the new year brings me my long-awaited good news! i really wish at least one of us would get some good news by January! well we're leaving work early today and i still have lots of work to catch up on so i will talk to you both next year (or in 3 days!). i hope you both have a fun and safe New Year's! good luck to all of us and i hope that we can start out the new year with some baby news! *~*BABY DUST FOR 2006*~*

 

Holly - December 31

Hi girls...feeling a bit better today..don't think that the pain was from O'ing.. I think I caught some stomach bug..was throwing up for a couple hours and slept for most of the day.. daughter is sick too..had temp of 102.3 she is doing a bit better today.. darn stomach! mild stomach cramps today..so more just doing nothing.. that's ok ..would like to get better.. Happy New Year!! hope that everyone enjoys tonight.. my night will be very relaxing.. anyway..no hubby and I did not do the BD as I was too sick..I think that pain I got was a cyst.. I should have O around the 25th or earlier..not sure if I did this month.. waiting on results from blood test and US.. anyway..sorry I am going on and on.. have a great night/day and Happy New Year!! ~Baby Dust~

 

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