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Hi guys. Well, it's all over for me. Seriously, last Thursday, I experienced 13 hours of non-stop contractions, blood and hell. It was horror. I passed the baby at about 2:30 in the morning last Friday. We were able to avoid the d&c, as I went to the doctor the next day, gave her the baby so she can test to see what was wrong with it and she looked at my uterus. It was empty. My lining went from 21 mm to a mere 8 mm in one day, that is how much blood and tissue I passed in about 13 hours. My husband and i were in shock, as they told us to expect a "heavy period." This was far from a period, it was so bloody that I woke up in the midle of the the night in a red reservoir and my white underware was COMPLETELY red, all the way to the elastic. There was no white anywhere left on it. I went through about 14 pads in one day. And I am still bleeding today. Anyway, my HCG levels went from 7,000 last Friday to a mere 1,200 on Monday, so they were happy to see it go down that fast, which means alot of the baby tissue was passed. Anyway, angelkitty, I saw that you were sad about your sister's snide remark. Boy, do I have a story for you! As you ladies know, my baby died 2 weeks before I finally bled. I told everyone in my family we lost the baby, and received a lot of comfort and vocal support as we waited for nature to take our baby. During that two week wait, my older sister NOT ONCE called or emailed us to offer her sorrow OR support or any kind words to help us heal from our loss. But last Wednesday, I finally got an email from her saying "I hope all is well now..." HOW Callous? She said nothing about how sorry she was, nothing. Like I just got over it after a week and a half. Keep in mind, my mom, my brother and my little brother all told her the baby died two weeks ago. So finally, she called me the same day I was passing the baby and bleeding like a wounded animal and in so much pain. My husband answered the phone and she preceded to ask him about the weather and asked how things were. He said "Things are not going well, things are very bad right now." She didn't offer any condolences or take the hint to say hey I will call at a better time, I hope you guys get through this...nothing. She just blurted out "I'm pregnant." My husband was so devastated by her callousness. He didn't even congratulate her or anything...He couldn't as he was in so much pain too as we lost this baby together that night. He saw everything too. Anyway, he told me what she did and how she didn't even say she was sorry for our loss or anything. He was so mad, he called my mother and told her what she did. My mother started to cry all night! She couldn't believe my sister could do that to us. Nobody could believe it. She was like a robot, no heart or feelings at all for us and our loss. Like a monster. Anyway, my mother told my husband that she asked my sister to keep her news to herself last week, as she said that we were going through a painful experience. That is why my mother cried, becuase my sister did it anyway. She thought it was more importatnt to share her news with us, than to wait a while longer as we got more time to heal. And she picked a hell of a night to do it too. When I finally emailed her on Sunday explaining how horrible it was for her to do that to my husband and I, put us in that situation. She only could say "it was bad timing." She still didn't offer her condolences or sorrow for our loss or anything. I basically told her then that I was horrified by her lack of insensitivity and how she could do this to her own sister. It was something you shouldn't even do to a neighbor or a friend, let alone a sister. My husband compared it to a soldier going in to get his leg amputated and having a guy come in to tell the amputee that hey, I got two legs and you have only one, right after surgery. Really, this whole miscarriage has been traumatic for me and my husband, but honestly, my sister doing this to us was equally as traumatic. Right now, I have written her out of my life, as I have no heart to even share anything with her anymore. She was so cruel, that she wanted to hurt us, kick us in the stomach one last time, than to console us when we were down. Is this not the act of a cruel woman? What do you think this was? I just can't forgive this. I believe in God and that everyone should be given the opportunity to be forgiven.,.. but how can I forgive someone who, when it was explained to her that she hurt us, refused to have any sorry in her heart of her actions and lack of humanity toward our darkest moment. I am just simply devastated all around.
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